In your atmosphere

Sometimes I just don't think. Sometimes I think too much. Even though I try to be the nicest and sweetest and most thoughtful guy, I can still mess up every now and then. It's human nature. But I don't like it when I do. Hurt the ones I love, even in the tiniest bit. I'm glad to have her, I need her and I can't imagine anyone else I'd rather wake up next to. I just want to be the best for her and I think sometimes that can just overwhelm me and fog my brain. I have the best intentions all the time but sometimes I just need to stop thinking so much and live. She loves me for me and that's the most beautiful thing in the world, I should fucking scream at the top of my lungs everyday how amazing a feeling like that is. But instead I just think about doing it. I'm always thinking. I need to start speaking.

Sky

Clouds move back and forth and block out the sun. Life moves back and forth. Happiness and sadness move back and forth. Mistakes and triumphs move back and forth. Ups and downs, lefts and rights, lights and darks. Everything you do will always come back. The happiness you had that you think is lost will come back. Everything gets shrouded by some clouds every now and then. It's our job to realize the sun is always behind them.



"I've got a girl that makes me feel like gold
She always shows me how to see the silver lining..."

What the fuck is wrong with me?

It's time to stop acting like a child...

Untitled

"So I've got this bad habit of always running
When all I need is the sound of the ocean
And the worst part is I don't feel the coastline anymore
So when I get there, I'll take the salt out of the waves
Plug it straight into my veins
Take the blue out of the sky
To get some color back in my eye
And like the sand that moves when the water pushes it forward
I'll move my feet to stay and sink a little deeper...

Oh sweet reunion won't you wash all over me
And take me home
How I've lasted a day here is quite beyond me
And I won't fall asleep tonight
I'd rather sleep right inside the sun
I'd rather burn alive than freeze to death
And it's a bad sign for me when I can start to see my breath

So take my body, come on test me
Cause I am planning a trip for you
And I need to know...
If you'll cross the desert, climb the tallest building
'Cause this won't work without your stare, right beside mine

I feel like a ghost walking in my own skin
Without a song to sing and waiting patiently
If you ever find yourself in California
Wishing you were next to me
Just keep the windows open
'Cause I am in the breeze

I need to know...
If I sail across the ocean, will you come with me?"

I think too much

And I've concluded that I couldn't be more content with my life.

Brilliance

I think there is a lot more to the word "smart". "Intelligent" is another word that strikes me the same way.  Intelligence is more than grades, more than facts. Intelligence is having the ability to live life while making the best decisions. Maybe some choices we make aren't for the best, but it takes an even smarter person not to keep making them. But we can decide to do many things. Listen to our friends and loved ones when they need an ear. Give one hundred percent of yourself and still give more if people ask you. Love someone. Cry when you need to and yell when you have to. Know what's best for you in life. Do what matters the most. Do what's important to you. Fill your life with people that make you feel your best. Realize everyone makes mistakes. You can decide to do or not to do any of these things, it takes a smart person to make them, but it takes an intelligent person to make them without thinking twice. People who live and make other peoples lives better are the most intelligent people on earth and I know someone that does that for me.

Say what you need to say...

I don't even know where to begin. I'm so happy and scared and clueless and wide eyed and hopeful and safe I don't even know what to say. I get so rushed in my head my words come out too fast or I can't remember what I meant to say or I talk too soft or I repeat the same thing five times in a conversation. But it's all because I'm in love. And she is so wonderful. She has shown me what it's like to be happy again. She helped me in the winter. Anytime I'm feeling worried or sad or happy she is there. We can do anything from city visits to watching T.V. in her bed or taking naps. Anything and everything. Every second is more amazing then the last one. She gives me confidence, strength, a reason to be a better person. She is beautiful. Smart. Caring. She has one of the biggest hearts I have ever seen in a person. I have the most respect for her. She has the world on her shoulders and yet she handles it with such grace. Before I ramble too much I just wanted to say that life will always bring you back. No matter how bad it gets. It will always bring you back to a safe place. A comforting place. I see the sunshine even at night when I talk to her. I am in love with her and I am in love with life.

You were freezing over hell

Life just fits now-a-days. I wake up and the sun is always shining. I love being wrapped around her. God damn this feels good...